Mum thank you for being different, you taught me many lessons I will never forget. You were a strong, courageous, beautiful woman with a heart of gold. It was difficult in my teenage years and saw how you suffered but what a great actress you were. You'd put on your makeup always dressed well and that dazzling smile that lit up a room. You took so many under your wing who were outcasts. It didn't make any difference you loved them anyway and like a mother to them. Keep coming to me in my dreams I know you are looking after us and sending messages. I hope one day I will come across that very special person who will be able to relate that word you said to me. We had a pact and you came up with the perfect symbol between us. Said sweetheart you will know that person is genuine and the real deal and communicating with me. It will be wonderful when that happens, unbelievable and magnificent if I was told the secret word then I would know that person is channeling you. That would be AMAZING 🤩 

 

 I have to tell you this mum when my cousin from Scotland passed you know who I'm talking about he came to me in my dream. I think I know why he showed up at the door quite a years ago I think it was in 2018 and what a surprise. We had a great conversation about my dad’s father and our grandfather. He told me he was high up in the Freemasons in Scotland. When he passed many came to his funeral and walked behind his coffin. I can’t remember everything he said it was overwhelming all that he was sharing. What a great story teller he was and trying to take it all in. The dream that night he looked so happy and a lot younger and with his mother my auntie was with him. When I awoke and told Michel guess who I saw in my dreams? It was so surreal and said either he's very sick or he must have passed. The next day Michel came into the room and said he saw on Facebook my cousin had passed on to the other side.  It sent shivers through my body what was happening to me was I becoming more psychic like your sister's mum. My auntie who read tealeaves and had many clients come to see her. I have no idea but some strange things have been happening.

 

I was seeing all these  beautiful colours it was quite remarkable and videos in my head like watching a movie screen seeing energy and orbs. Then it stopped after getting very sick I felt dead inside I didn't feel like the same person anymore. My beautiful hair mum started to fall out it has stopped thank goodness and a lot thinner than it used to be. I have small bald patches at the back of my head I had to cut it shorter. You know what it will grow back and I'm not worried because you left me something special. As a little girl you would say be kind and loving always think of the other person you never know what they may be going through. It was hard sometimes mum being bullied and not understanding why children and adults had to be cruel. I'm thankful you were my mum teaching me humility. Many have no knowledge of what’s really happening and evil there is out there. I’m so blessed I can think outside the box and this is what has saved me a lot of the time having intuition and an incredible imagination. Going inside myself praying, meditating and manifesting recharging.

 

I remember the day you called me all you kept saying I love you, I love you and tell my grandson and Michel I love them also. I said I will mum and I love you too and you sounded like your old self full of energy and we laughed a lot. My heart was filled with so much joy to hear your voice you sounded happy again it was like old times, content and loving that day. You know why but didn’t realize it at the time you were passing on and going to be with your loved ones. When I  got a call late that evening from my brother I knew, I just knew it was your time to go and the strangest thing I had been writing you a poem putting all my feelings down it was poring out of me.  I'm realizing now I was doing automatic writing it helps my anxiety and feel I am being guided. There is a lot more to this story but not right now. You'd left me signs and came to me in my dream with that message. Now I know for certain what you trying to tell me. It’s been a long journey and still have more to discover and be revealed. I love sharing as you can see mum it’s good for my psychic putting my feeling down. When younger drawing picture stories the reason I couldn’t read this was how I expressed myself and you kept some of them. We do pick our parents I mention this in one of my novels. Thank you mum for being you I love ♥️ you very much. I never belong here and I think you knew when I was born cradled in your arms I wrote that poem. When the time is right I will be with you mum, my loved ones and Star🌟Seed family🛸 out in the galaxy🪐 .

God Bless

Your loving 🌟Daughter 

I'm not going to put my real name that's in my novels

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